In you I saw a glimpse of Him
In you I saw a glimspe of someone I could spend the rest of my life with
In you I saw a glimpse of a man I have only ever dreamed of
In you I saw a glimpse of everything I wanted and more
In you I saw a glimpse of the love of Christ and the beauty of the Lord
However, these glimpses became my reality, they became more of a reality to me than the truth
I took these gilmpses and created a false person, someone who existed only in my mind
When I was awaken to the truth, I saw these glimpses for what they were
Nothing more than a fantasy...a fairytale
A dream of what we could have been, what you could have been
Not what we were or what I truly knew you to be
Now only one prayer remains
That I will see you for who you truly are
All of you
That I will not overlook the bad and merely focus on the good
And yet NEVER focus so much on the bad that I loose sight of the good
I pray that I will stop loving who I have thought you to be, but love who you are
All of you
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Friday, August 14, 2009
"Do Not Be Anxious About Anything"
"Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Let the day's own trouble be sufficient for the day. "
-Matthew 6:34
The other day I was cleaning my house, and while cleaning I started doing what I often do when I am doing thoughtless tasks..I started thinking and mediating on my life. Of course it wasn't long after I started this self-centered analysis of my life that I soon began to become anxious. Anxious about school...anxious about relationships...anxious about friends and family..and the list goes on!!
This summer I had quite the change of pace in my life compared to the previous semester. Change of schedule, change of people, change of relationships, change of what I was filling my time with...lot's of change:) This has been indescribably good for me! After the craziness of last semester, I really needed a completely different lifestyle for awhile. I got so caught up in friends, trying to please people, getting good grades etc. that I really lost sight of the whole purpose in my existence. This summer God showed me much grace in reminding me exactly what I was created for and who I am created to be!
While cleaning I was reflecting on this, however, the more I started to reflect the more anxious I became about the coming up semester. What if my focus is lost again? What if relationships can't be restored? What if I do poorly in my classes? Like a wave of panic all these thoughts starting hitting me at once, however, among the craziness of my mind and my heart a thought popped into my head: "Kelli, stop being anxious about tomorrow...tomorrow will take care of itself." At first I thought it was quite funny, anxious is EXACTLY the way I was feeling in that moment..not worried, not fearful..but anxious!! I then realized that God was reminding me of His truth's in that moment. I have nothing to be anxious about because I know He will daily sustain me! Everyday, He will be my guide through the semester..one day at a time. And should I stumble or loose sight, by His loving grace He will always restore and bring me back to a place of adoration and love for Him. I know this to be true not only from His Word but also because He has been soo faithful to me in this way soo many times previously in my life!! I need not be anxious about tomorrow, because my God already knows all of my tomorrows and they are all a part of His plan for my life.:)
God doesn't need to keep us anxious in order to establish his power and superiority. Instead He exalts his power and superiority by working to take away our anxiety.
-John Piper
-Matthew 6:34
The other day I was cleaning my house, and while cleaning I started doing what I often do when I am doing thoughtless tasks..I started thinking and mediating on my life. Of course it wasn't long after I started this self-centered analysis of my life that I soon began to become anxious. Anxious about school...anxious about relationships...anxious about friends and family..and the list goes on!!
This summer I had quite the change of pace in my life compared to the previous semester. Change of schedule, change of people, change of relationships, change of what I was filling my time with...lot's of change:) This has been indescribably good for me! After the craziness of last semester, I really needed a completely different lifestyle for awhile. I got so caught up in friends, trying to please people, getting good grades etc. that I really lost sight of the whole purpose in my existence. This summer God showed me much grace in reminding me exactly what I was created for and who I am created to be!
While cleaning I was reflecting on this, however, the more I started to reflect the more anxious I became about the coming up semester. What if my focus is lost again? What if relationships can't be restored? What if I do poorly in my classes? Like a wave of panic all these thoughts starting hitting me at once, however, among the craziness of my mind and my heart a thought popped into my head: "Kelli, stop being anxious about tomorrow...tomorrow will take care of itself." At first I thought it was quite funny, anxious is EXACTLY the way I was feeling in that moment..not worried, not fearful..but anxious!! I then realized that God was reminding me of His truth's in that moment. I have nothing to be anxious about because I know He will daily sustain me! Everyday, He will be my guide through the semester..one day at a time. And should I stumble or loose sight, by His loving grace He will always restore and bring me back to a place of adoration and love for Him. I know this to be true not only from His Word but also because He has been soo faithful to me in this way soo many times previously in my life!! I need not be anxious about tomorrow, because my God already knows all of my tomorrows and they are all a part of His plan for my life.:)
God doesn't need to keep us anxious in order to establish his power and superiority. Instead He exalts his power and superiority by working to take away our anxiety.
-John Piper
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Summer of 09'
So I've been terrible about writing on here!! I'm going to be better..so here I go:
This summer has yielded much and so very little all at once. I have learned much but in some ways feel like I am back at square one. Life is so weird! The relationships we make, the ones that break...they are all part of a much bigger, greater plan that we can only see a small portion of. I am so very grateful for the true friends who care for me, the ones who have stuck by my side through thick and thin. Tim and Nessa constantly remind me of the grace of God in all of life's situations, they remind that I am not in this alone. They are my family, I don't know what I'd do without them! Mal always makes me feel loved, she is one of the very few people I've actually continued to be close with after high school. She never uses me to further her own agenda and for that, among many other reasons, is why I love her so. Christopher is so fun to be with and is very low drama. Although he'll never admit to it I know he cares for me greatly. He's one of few who has taken the time to get to know my heart. Melissa although she sometimes drives me crazy I love her and couldn't live without her!! She's always there for me when I need something! And then of course my family, who keeps me constantly grounded and reminds who I am even though I often forget. My sister Kassi is amazing, she never lets me forget who I am but accepts the young woman God is making to be and encourages me in it. Besides my mother she knows me better than anyone else. When life gets me down and drama occurs she reminds me that it doesn't really matter after all:)
For some reason I just felt like giving a shout out to all my friends who have been such a blessing to my life. I think after being hurt so much by friendships it makes me appreciate even more the good solid people God has blessed me with.
I wanna try to start writing everyday...I do have a concern though..how do you blog without becoming self-obsessed? I want to write, I love to write, it's therapeutic for me, but I don't want to fall into this self-centered train of thought by cataloguing every little thought, feeling, emotion, that comes my way.
Any thoughts??
<3 Kel
This summer has yielded much and so very little all at once. I have learned much but in some ways feel like I am back at square one. Life is so weird! The relationships we make, the ones that break...they are all part of a much bigger, greater plan that we can only see a small portion of. I am so very grateful for the true friends who care for me, the ones who have stuck by my side through thick and thin. Tim and Nessa constantly remind me of the grace of God in all of life's situations, they remind that I am not in this alone. They are my family, I don't know what I'd do without them! Mal always makes me feel loved, she is one of the very few people I've actually continued to be close with after high school. She never uses me to further her own agenda and for that, among many other reasons, is why I love her so. Christopher is so fun to be with and is very low drama. Although he'll never admit to it I know he cares for me greatly. He's one of few who has taken the time to get to know my heart. Melissa although she sometimes drives me crazy I love her and couldn't live without her!! She's always there for me when I need something! And then of course my family, who keeps me constantly grounded and reminds who I am even though I often forget. My sister Kassi is amazing, she never lets me forget who I am but accepts the young woman God is making to be and encourages me in it. Besides my mother she knows me better than anyone else. When life gets me down and drama occurs she reminds me that it doesn't really matter after all:)
For some reason I just felt like giving a shout out to all my friends who have been such a blessing to my life. I think after being hurt so much by friendships it makes me appreciate even more the good solid people God has blessed me with.
I wanna try to start writing everyday...I do have a concern though..how do you blog without becoming self-obsessed? I want to write, I love to write, it's therapeutic for me, but I don't want to fall into this self-centered train of thought by cataloguing every little thought, feeling, emotion, that comes my way.
Any thoughts??
<3 Kel
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